Yesterday and today was perhaps one of my UNFORGETTABLE days in my Christian Life so far. Thats y this post is going to be long~ (: But I tell you, its worth reading.
I want to thank Clarence for lending me the book by John Harris: say hello to courtship, which has impacted me greatly. Never have I found God's work so amazing until I read this book. I was speechless to how God is able to make miracles happen in our life. I was greatly inspired by his work. I felt connected to him, I could feel his presence around me, I could listen and hear what he's trying to tell me. Our God is a great God, he has plans for us and he is always on time. Hallelujah~
The book basically talks about "Courtship". This book is amazing! It tells us alot of things about have a true relationship with your other half. Perhaps this book had impacted different people differently. And I wanna share how it has impacted mine. (:
I supposed some of us have been in a relationship before, I know I have. Many times, we are blinded by this "love". We act foolishly. I wanna admit, before I read this book, I was immature. To me, Love is this special feeling you have for the other half. Many times, when we see an attractive opposite sex, we tend to have this "feeling" for him or her. Love is simple for me, as long as I like you and you like me, thats love.
Only till yesterday, was I finally enlightened. Love isn't as simple as that. Love is amazing! But how many of us can PROUDLY tell the whole world that, I AM READY TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP? I know I can't, I'm not ready. We are still young, we still have a long road infront of us and we never know what will happen in the future. The view of "love" I used to have was perhaps very superficial. Many of us, young teenagers, get into relationship is just to get the feeling of being in "love". But, have you wondered, is that the "love" which you seek? Is this guy or gal gonna be your future husband or wife? I doubt so. Den why do many of us still wanna get into a relationship knowing that its gonna end up in a breakup?
Ask yourself this, are you able to support yourself? Who gives you your allowance? Who gives you a roof over your head so that you can sleep? Think about it, how are you able to provide your other half when you can't even take care of yourself.
Y are there so many "couples" I see in school dating behind their parent's back? And why are there so many "couples" who can't last long in their relationship?
Fear? Fear that your parents will scold you for being in relationship? If thats so, how are you going to give the all your "love" to your other half? With this barricade, how are you going to love your opposite wholeheartedly? In the end, who's that one who suffer?
I've seen many people who admit proudly that they have had their first kiss. Why be proud of it? Look at these people, are they still with the guy or gal who they gave their first kiss to? Many of them say, kissing isn't a big deal. To me, KISSING is a BIG DEAL. Imagine, if you were to kiss your other half every now and den, when you get married, there isn't anything special to honor about in the relationship anymore. If someone who claims he or she likes you alot, and wanted to kiss you, does that person really mean it? He or she is actually taking away a part of you away. Isn't it wonderful to know your other half still haven give his or her first kiss away? And when both of you got married, u know that there is something that belongs to you. Its like giving respect to your other half, you wan to let him or her know that he or she is the one whom you look up to and you will not give this kiss just anyhow to anyone. Thats y I still haven gave my first kiss away! and I'm proud of it. (:
From this, I've told myself, I've told to God, that I'll focus on my studies & God now. LOVE IS AMAZING! and I'm not going to be SINGLE for the rest of my life. God wans us to fall in love, thats y he created Adam & Eve in the first place. Adam being a leader and the initiator and Eve being the support for Adam. I supposed, God would be rejoicing to see his creations happily living with one another. God has wonderful plans for us, he wans us to wait! So lets not be rush to get into a relationship.
God is just like a chef, Us being his customer. God wans us to have the best! Thats y he planned our meals the way it is, first the appetizers, den the main course and last but not least, the deserts! Imagine, if we are always rushing God to give us everything, would we gain? The answer is NO! God will just grab a gigantic bowl, pour the soup of the day inside with the garlic bread, take the medium rare steak and throw it in, same goes to the fries and veggies and add 3 scoops of your favourite chocolate ice cream into the mixture. Using a ENORMOUS spoon, he stirs everything up and serve it to you. Do u think the thing will taste nice? Thats y God wans us to wait, he had everything planned out for us and he wans us to deserve the BEST! (:
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I called Tanjin yesterday to pray over the phone. We chatted alot and ended the conversation with a prayer. I just want to learn how to pray so badly. I wanna pray well, I wanna pray fluently, I wan my prayer to be colourful. I was inspired, thats y I have the buring desire to learn how to pray well. So Tanjin helped me, and I prayed for E4O4. It was amazing to be able to pray! And I wanna pray more! (:
Today's afternoon cell group was WOW... I felt God's presence around us. During worship after the word, my mind was thinking of how he had inspired me and there was this vision of me praying for my friends in school, for their studies. And den, I just started to cry, tears just flow out of my eyes. It was an amazing feeling, and den, nothing else seem to matter. The presence was EXTREMELY STRONG! and den Yufen came over and prayed for me. and WOW... I could just feel that he's right beside me, and I just CRIED! And I was happy that I'm crying. My entire body felt numb, I can't open up my fist, its like forcing me to clench it. Den I just prayed silently, cool myself down, and den worship ended. I was so OVERWHELMED! (:
Dear Heavenly Father, I wanna thank you for everything you
have done for me. I wanna thank you for sending Jesus down to die for our sin.
I'm very grateful for that. Oh Father, I've seen your magnificent work on earth
and I pray that you will create miracles in my life, oh Lord. I wanna sacrifice
my time to avail myself for every prayer meeting, prayer conference, service and
cell group meeting. Cos I wanna know more of you Lord, I wanna feel your
presence Lord, cos your love is all I need. I wanna thank you for enlightening
me, Oh Father, you have taught me how to be a better person. You have taught me
how to be a selfless person, Oh Father. I lift up myself into your hands,
Father. I wanna serve other people, cos when we serve other people, we are
serving you Lord. I pray that you will teach me how to forgive, cos it is our
sins which brought Jesus to the cross therefore I pray that I will learn how to
forgive other people like the way you forgive our sins. I pray for the anointing
of your wisdom to come upon me. I pray that I would not be nervous when I enter
the exam hall. I pray that you will give me a photocopy memory, so that I can
remember all formulas & definitions. You have called us to be the head and
not the tail, above and not beneath. And I wanna shine for you Lord, I wanna
shine in your kingdom and be a living testimony. I pray that you will guide me
in my life, cos my life now belongs to you. Oh Father, you are my shepherd and I
know you will guide me on the correct path. I pray that you will bless me, Oh
Father, cos I know when we give our offerings faithfully, you would multiply the
amount by ten folds, hundred folds and even thousand folds. Cos you are a Great
God, you wan us to have the best of everything. You have great plans for me
Lord, and I would wait patiently for everything that is coming in my way. Once
again, I wanna thank you Lord for being such an important part in my life and
giving me the purpose to live. In Jesus name I pray,
Amen
I am someone whom you don't know. A stranger. Do you think you know me? Actually, you don't. There are many sides to a person. A person like me. But that's for you to find out! (: